First Admin Job...without Pay

Finally got a volunteer job that's quite the long term commitment. Still doing my Physics course.

I still havent gotten to the point of writing down by bucket list, but I know I will...soon.:)

Anyways, I'm quite afraid for my results to come out. Hope that I would do well. PLEASE!!!

So, yup. Still waiting. Waiting. Waiting. This is patience. Patience, I say. :)

A New Chapter Begins

Done with my four years in Singapore.

Finally gotten nearer to my goal/dream. Yeap, I'm in Canada now!

It's cold but I like it. Hehe.;)

Anyway, as a friend aptly described it, a new chapter of my life begins. Short term plans include cleaning the house, finding a job, earning some money which I can save, and studying physics.

Happy, happy. (:

Reviving my Blog with a Short Story

A potpourri of the scents of expensive perfume, hair gel, and cherry flavoured lipstick wafted throughout the hall. Incessant chattering ensued as one sees familiar faces - allies - entering the zone. These women were clad in stylish and expensive pieces of clothing, while holding on to their designer bags as if it was their most prized possession. Thick cosmetic material clung to their skin, to cover the inevitable, what age had already brought about. Each of them eyed the next person to come in suspiciously, treating each like her rival - a foe. This is modern psychological warfare.

Disappointment Coupled With Bits of Contentment

Yes, I've been noticing that people almost two years younger than me are finally graduating high school, and yet, I'm still here, in Junior College.

I really am very very lost, I can't explain it but at times I'm really disappointed, and the "what-if's" suddenly come to mind. The "could have beens and might have beens" just pop into your mind, eating through your thoughts. It is difficult, to realize the consequences to your decisions that you once have so gladly taken for granted. I mean, I was a believer of "age doesn't matter". Guess I've changed.

Hence, the disappointment.

On a lighter note, I am contented with my life now. I'm just afraid, no horrified actually, of what might actually happen when that feeling of contentment disappears in a split of a second. What if things don't go the way I wanted it to be?

And so, there are a lot of things that I can't really understand now. The mixed feelings of disappointment and contentment.

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ANYWAYS, ORIENTATION 2011 IS SUPER SUPER SUPER FUNNN<3 yay(:

A Year Ahead

Yet again, almost three weeks of not being able to blog.

Christmas went and passed, New Years' flew by. All I can say is, I truly had fun recuperating from the stressful year I had. HK-Macau-HK-Philippines. Eat, sleep, go out, eat, come back, drama, sleep, eat...I did gain a few kilos here and there but I feel it was worthwhile. Especially now that it is only the first few days here in school but I have already been super stressed out of my wits.

OGL. I like the feeling of being able to introduce people to the world I have just been introduced into just a year ago. So, here I am fulfilling my dream. And I realize it was never an easy job to begin with, the stamina one requires to fulfill the duties expected of her. But, I am happy.

School. I am getting tired, even though this is just the start. But, I also feel quite happy that my rotting brain is finally working again. I may have forgotten a lot of things but learning new things have always been a wondrous feeling, anyways. I pray that strength be given unto me to finish this race well, fair and square.

Choir. With the new pressures thrust upon us, the stress levels and tension level had also increased at an increasing rate. May we be able to remind ourselves that singing was not meant to impress but to bless the people out there, hence, having a whole new motivation to pull through this together.

Until next time that I blog, I shall promise to keep the faith burning...

YEAY.

My Absence

Forgive me for my absence, dear blogspot.

In my blogging life, I always stop blogging for about three months or so. I've never really analysed why but I guess, I just didn't need the ranting to be posted online. And when I can't hold in the things I want to say anymore, I come back to blogging. And yes, I'm back again, I guess. A lot of things has happened since I last blogged, obviously.

Promos came and went, results came out (not happy though), PW (the hellish time) has also ended. Started watching dramas, and I believe I'm truly crazy. But, had stop now. Still a kdrama, kpop, tdrama, cdrama addict. Guess somethings never change.

And yes, caroling is ending today! And I'm flying off to HongKong tmr!

OF COURSE I'm excited like hell, but the inner me also says something like, "BE CAREFUL><"

OKAY. enough of this.

My first-year stay in ACJC and the third-year stay in Oldham Hall had found me a lot of good and true friends. But most of all, it got me thinking about my future, what I want to be, what I thought I wanted to be, what I know I don't want to be...Let's say I'm very confused, uncertain even. I dont know which path I should be taking. And even if I'm the one who always says, it's okay we're still young, I realize I'm not even young anymore. One more year and I wouldn't be called a "teenager" anymore. I'm legal and I still can't make decisions for myself. I don't really know if I can be called independent or mature. Sure, i've probably matured a bit from the little girl I used to be but not to drop the title of being immature.

I don't know...Thinking about it makes me feel super depressed now. So, I shall STOP<3>

Yeah, I guess that's it.

BuhBye.

Nostalgia

I realized that in every blog I had in the past...3 years...I've always had a blog entry about being nostalgic. And I really am today. and yesterday. and probably tomorrow. and the next.

Anyway, Anna and I went for some Popular Fair @ Expo shopping + other forms of shopping (e.g. window shopping, try-it-on shopping), studying @ berrylite [Iluma branch] (which proved to be super effective, probably because of the yogurt) plus some Udders @ Novena(: YAY. It was a great time of bonding and talking and studying and etc etc etc...And when we were eating dinner - we came across the topic of S Club 7. One of my most favorite bands when I was younger.

I used to like S club 7 like crazy. Analogy...If I am crazed about KPOP now, that was how I was about 10 to 11 years ago over S Club 7. I watch their shows, listen to their songs, wait for their MVs to be played on MTV or V channel or myx (if there was myx that time). I would always tune in to Disney channel even to just catch a glimpse of my favorite pop idols. The difference back then and now is that I loved their charisma as a whole group and I did not particularly like any one of the guys. I just loved them. Now, as much as I like kpop groups, I would usually see them individually and how great they are as a single person.

And that thought led from one thing to another. From S Club 7, Westlife to Blue. To how I love Disney channel and how I used to watch Nickelodeon and Cartoon Network. How we (Mao, Bea, Nini and I) loved watching are you afraid of the dark, thinking of stories similar to those and telling the stories out loud. And then I miss the time we went Taiwan and all the good and bad things that had happened there. And then I miss the times when we (Mao and I) would watch Nickelodeon while munching on Baked Mac or Pancit Canton...Until I reached the time I was in High School where I had a special friend...And then the list just goes on and on and on and on...

It's just too hard to forget when all the memories just keep on streaming. And hard to focus on your work too when you suddenly wish you were back to all that. Ignorant of the responsibilities you must carry...When decision making wasn't all that hard...When you weren't judged of how you are...Or maybe you were but you just didn't care all that much for it because you had the self-confidence that you can just be you...I miss those times.

Yeah. I just miss my old self. And what I used to do. I miss my childhood. And I love Disney Princess movies AND Barbie movies. Stop laughing. I'm serious here.

HEHEHxD

Okkkbye(: