My Absence

Forgive me for my absence, dear blogspot.

In my blogging life, I always stop blogging for about three months or so. I've never really analysed why but I guess, I just didn't need the ranting to be posted online. And when I can't hold in the things I want to say anymore, I come back to blogging. And yes, I'm back again, I guess. A lot of things has happened since I last blogged, obviously.

Promos came and went, results came out (not happy though), PW (the hellish time) has also ended. Started watching dramas, and I believe I'm truly crazy. But, had stop now. Still a kdrama, kpop, tdrama, cdrama addict. Guess somethings never change.

And yes, caroling is ending today! And I'm flying off to HongKong tmr!

OF COURSE I'm excited like hell, but the inner me also says something like, "BE CAREFUL><"

OKAY. enough of this.

My first-year stay in ACJC and the third-year stay in Oldham Hall had found me a lot of good and true friends. But most of all, it got me thinking about my future, what I want to be, what I thought I wanted to be, what I know I don't want to be...Let's say I'm very confused, uncertain even. I dont know which path I should be taking. And even if I'm the one who always says, it's okay we're still young, I realize I'm not even young anymore. One more year and I wouldn't be called a "teenager" anymore. I'm legal and I still can't make decisions for myself. I don't really know if I can be called independent or mature. Sure, i've probably matured a bit from the little girl I used to be but not to drop the title of being immature.

I don't know...Thinking about it makes me feel super depressed now. So, I shall STOP<3>

Yeah, I guess that's it.

BuhBye.

Nostalgia

I realized that in every blog I had in the past...3 years...I've always had a blog entry about being nostalgic. And I really am today. and yesterday. and probably tomorrow. and the next.

Anyway, Anna and I went for some Popular Fair @ Expo shopping + other forms of shopping (e.g. window shopping, try-it-on shopping), studying @ berrylite [Iluma branch] (which proved to be super effective, probably because of the yogurt) plus some Udders @ Novena(: YAY. It was a great time of bonding and talking and studying and etc etc etc...And when we were eating dinner - we came across the topic of S Club 7. One of my most favorite bands when I was younger.

I used to like S club 7 like crazy. Analogy...If I am crazed about KPOP now, that was how I was about 10 to 11 years ago over S Club 7. I watch their shows, listen to their songs, wait for their MVs to be played on MTV or V channel or myx (if there was myx that time). I would always tune in to Disney channel even to just catch a glimpse of my favorite pop idols. The difference back then and now is that I loved their charisma as a whole group and I did not particularly like any one of the guys. I just loved them. Now, as much as I like kpop groups, I would usually see them individually and how great they are as a single person.

And that thought led from one thing to another. From S Club 7, Westlife to Blue. To how I love Disney channel and how I used to watch Nickelodeon and Cartoon Network. How we (Mao, Bea, Nini and I) loved watching are you afraid of the dark, thinking of stories similar to those and telling the stories out loud. And then I miss the time we went Taiwan and all the good and bad things that had happened there. And then I miss the times when we (Mao and I) would watch Nickelodeon while munching on Baked Mac or Pancit Canton...Until I reached the time I was in High School where I had a special friend...And then the list just goes on and on and on and on...

It's just too hard to forget when all the memories just keep on streaming. And hard to focus on your work too when you suddenly wish you were back to all that. Ignorant of the responsibilities you must carry...When decision making wasn't all that hard...When you weren't judged of how you are...Or maybe you were but you just didn't care all that much for it because you had the self-confidence that you can just be you...I miss those times.

Yeah. I just miss my old self. And what I used to do. I miss my childhood. And I love Disney Princess movies AND Barbie movies. Stop laughing. I'm serious here.

HEHEHxD

Okkkbye(:

There Are Some

there are some people who aren't clear of how they make others feel -

intimidated, infatuated, irritated...

some make you feel intimidated, because they're very presence gives off the kind of light and aura that screams "I'm the boss"...the worst part about it is that they are not aware of this, and they cannot feel that they are giving off such impression...

then there are those who make you feel infatuated or at least the need to admire them, because they're silent charms speak for themselves...well, they don't really know that they make you feel that way...because...well...they don't know what effect they impart on people...because they're just too humble to see their perfection...

then...well...there are those who make you feel irritated all the time, all day all night...for each and every time you see them...for each and every time they speak...for each and every time they do things that sound just utterly absurd to you...they do not know that they make you feel as such because they're just too arrogant to see their mistakes/irritating deeds...

well, whatever. i might make you feel all three...or maybe not. because i'm never humble. arrogant, very much. but strict =/ me heheheheheh.

yeap, baboosh(:

September Blues

Yes, September's the time when you "consolidate your thoughts and ideas", "revise your work", and "close the gaps" for most students in Singapore. And that's what I've been doing, before taking a break from the books and notes I've been with for the past 2 hours to blog. Sometimes, it is quite irritating to be mugging when we're supposed to have a one week holidays. But then again, better to use your time wisely than to waste it away doing unimportant things. Hence, the abstinence from anything detrimental to health has started for me.

So, I find peace and things to have slowed down a bit for me. Not the usual wake up so early and sleep so late. In fact, I overslept yesterday. I guess a once in a while long rest from the usual hectic schedule is beneficial since I felt the difference. Waking up feeling refreshed. Feeling not so angsty due to the "so much to do, so little time" ideology.

And of course, finally went for DSA Kidsread session. And it was awesome, I tell you. The feeling of being happy that you have done something, the feeling of being able to help someone. Or maybe, just the feeling of being around children. Spectacular feeling.

HAHAH. I must stop rambling because I believe that my thoughts are very fragmented as of the moment. So, I shall leave. And go for dinner. And then mug all the night away(:

Another First Post in a New Blogger Blog

Hey y'all people of the world, guess who's back?

It's been a long time coming, but I'm here now. Who else but the great Georgine;) HAHAH

enough of the crap talk. well, yup, this is another first post on blogger. just got bored with my old ones that I deleted them already(: YAY.

So, updates about my life.

I'm in Anglo Chinese Junior College now, still in Oldham Hall though. Still in choir, used to be in library but quit after the June holidays. Went to Russia (Moscow and St. Petersburg) during the June holidays for choir tour. It still feels like a fairytale.

I'm happy, I really am. Just, mugging for promos scares me out like, totally. YIKES.

Yup, so that's about it for now, I'll post again and promise to keep this blog alive. YAY.