Yes, I've been noticing that people almost two years younger than me are finally graduating high school, and yet, I'm still here, in Junior College.
I really am very very lost, I can't explain it but at times I'm really disappointed, and the "what-if's" suddenly come to mind. The "could have beens and might have beens" just pop into your mind, eating through your thoughts. It is difficult, to realize the consequences to your decisions that you once have so gladly taken for granted. I mean, I was a believer of "age doesn't matter". Guess I've changed.
Hence, the disappointment.
On a lighter note, I am contented with my life now. I'm just afraid, no horrified actually, of what might actually happen when that feeling of contentment disappears in a split of a second. What if things don't go the way I wanted it to be?
And so, there are a lot of things that I can't really understand now. The mixed feelings of disappointment and contentment.
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ANYWAYS, ORIENTATION 2011 IS SUPER SUPER SUPER FUNNN<3 yay(:
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
A Year Ahead
Yet again, almost three weeks of not being able to blog.
Christmas went and passed, New Years' flew by. All I can say is, I truly had fun recuperating from the stressful year I had. HK-Macau-HK-Philippines. Eat, sleep, go out, eat, come back, drama, sleep, eat...I did gain a few kilos here and there but I feel it was worthwhile. Especially now that it is only the first few days here in school but I have already been super stressed out of my wits.
OGL. I like the feeling of being able to introduce people to the world I have just been introduced into just a year ago. So, here I am fulfilling my dream. And I realize it was never an easy job to begin with, the stamina one requires to fulfill the duties expected of her. But, I am happy.
School. I am getting tired, even though this is just the start. But, I also feel quite happy that my rotting brain is finally working again. I may have forgotten a lot of things but learning new things have always been a wondrous feeling, anyways. I pray that strength be given unto me to finish this race well, fair and square.
Choir. With the new pressures thrust upon us, the stress levels and tension level had also increased at an increasing rate. May we be able to remind ourselves that singing was not meant to impress but to bless the people out there, hence, having a whole new motivation to pull through this together.
Until next time that I blog, I shall promise to keep the faith burning...
YEAY.
Christmas went and passed, New Years' flew by. All I can say is, I truly had fun recuperating from the stressful year I had. HK-Macau-HK-Philippines. Eat, sleep, go out, eat, come back, drama, sleep, eat...I did gain a few kilos here and there but I feel it was worthwhile. Especially now that it is only the first few days here in school but I have already been super stressed out of my wits.
OGL. I like the feeling of being able to introduce people to the world I have just been introduced into just a year ago. So, here I am fulfilling my dream. And I realize it was never an easy job to begin with, the stamina one requires to fulfill the duties expected of her. But, I am happy.
School. I am getting tired, even though this is just the start. But, I also feel quite happy that my rotting brain is finally working again. I may have forgotten a lot of things but learning new things have always been a wondrous feeling, anyways. I pray that strength be given unto me to finish this race well, fair and square.
Choir. With the new pressures thrust upon us, the stress levels and tension level had also increased at an increasing rate. May we be able to remind ourselves that singing was not meant to impress but to bless the people out there, hence, having a whole new motivation to pull through this together.
Until next time that I blog, I shall promise to keep the faith burning...
YEAY.
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